To my Bipolar, (also known as Manic Depression);
I HATE you!!!
Actually, that's not true:
I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE being MANIC!!!
It's a high: I feel like I can do ANYTHING!!!
It's like being the Tasmanian Devil. I'm running in circles and I'm bouncing off walls. My mind is racing, I'm talking at top speed and am even more comprehendible than normal.
BUT...
Isaac Newton said that "Every action has an equal and opposite reaction." He also said, "What goes up must come down."
For me, depression is much worse and occurs much more often than mania. I think a lot of this is due to how Cerebral Palsy effects my body. It zaps my energy and exhausts me. Most of my life is lived in slow motion and it feels like I'm constantly chasing after something that I will never, never be able to catch.
In addition to depression, I also struggle with other emotions and have emotional outbursts;
This leads to shame and guilt;
Which leads to hearing my inner voices;
Leading to self-harm;
Leading, leading, leading down the rabbit hole.
Until SMACK
You hit rock bottom and once you climb back out of the rabbit hole...
The cycle starts all over again.
PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE
LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
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