`Dear Cerebral Palsy
You are my oldest friend and confidant. I can't escape you; even when I want to more than anything. You caused me my first physical pain and also my first heartache. You took my breath away along with my voice. When I tried to stand up, you would pull my back down.
As we got older, we had a battle of wills; this is a constant that continues to this day.
One area that you did not overcome was my intellect. I loved school. I was very good at reading and writing; math, not so much.
When we became teenagers, you invited someone else into our friendship. Bipolar.
She was jealous of everything we had and the accomplishment that we had made and she drove a wedge between us. She was bossy and always had to be in control; even to this day.
As we got older, both of you begin to fight over me. Then, the fighting stopped. When the fighting stopped, the silence started. This silence was very frightening because that is when the two of you teamed up against me.
Even though you both teamed up, you have your own identity
Because of this, you will be held accountable for all you've done to me.
However, dear CP, I can't say we haven't had our good times. Like I said at the beginning of this letter, you are my oldest friend. You offered me a certain comfort that I can't describe and I doubt anyone could understand without experiencing it for themselves.
You have given me opportunities and have allowed me to have relationships that I could have never had if I hadn't been disabled.
You have taught me how to be patient and understanding.
You have given me a "peace that surpasses all understanding" Philippians 4:7 (ESV).
Because of you, I have a beautiful relationship with GOD that I probably wouldn't have had if I hadn't had CP. I've learned how to deal with you.
Well, dear CP, that's all for now.
Love & Hate
Me
I understand this even though I don’t have CP.
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